so im not sure if anyone else has wedding last minute nerves but i really do. You always see in the movies where they get last mintue nerves and arent sure if they can go through with the wedding... thats how im feeling these days.
im so nervous and worried about everything, and not sure about it all, not just the big day, but everything thats to come from it... im freaking about being an "old married woman" , and being tied down forever and it feels like being marred is such a big thing in a persons life and im gonna become such a boring nanna and not gonna be any fun anymore.
It probably doesnt help that im the oldest in my group of friends, they are all in their early 20's and alot of them are single and having a ball doing what they want with their lives. i didnt really get a chance to do that in my youth as i went from long term relationship to long term relationship to meeting the boy. and we have been together 6 yrs which is practically forever.... god i wish i could stay young and carefree forever.
i know all this stupidity is in my head, and ill calm down closer to the date, i love "the boy" theres no doubting that.... but for now all my feelings are jumbled up and its stressing me out BIG TIME.